I hate myself when I think like you.

padmap434 @ 2007-06-23T20:51:00

2007-06-24T00:51:00Z

...How do I pack my entire life into two suitcases?

This is insanity.

padmap434 @ 2007-06-02T15:39:00

2007-06-02T19:42:51Z

They're over. They're finally over.

I think celebration is in order!

Anyone want to celebrate? ...Please, forgive me if I fall asleep during the celebration. It does not mean you're boring, it means I'm going insane.

I'm ready for my life to go back to normal. Like, now.

padmap434 @ 2007-05-22T21:02:00

2007-05-23T01:02:43Z

Ohgodohgodohgod

WHAT IF I FAILED EVERYTHING?

padmap434 @ 2007-05-15T19:34:00

2007-05-15T23:35:00Z

Ohgodohgodohgod NEWTS are coming soon. HOW ARE THEY THIS SOON? Why do these dates just CREEP UP ON EVERYONE?

...I'm freaking out. Who wants to have an emergency study session?

padmap434 @ 2007-04-23T14:57:00

2007-04-23T18:56:08Z

[Hexed from Professors]

Holyfuckingsoddinghell.

...I got in.

padmap434 @ 2007-04-18T21:29:00

2007-04-19T01:31:31Z

.................ohshit. Owl. Owl owl owl. America. ...

...I want my mum.

padmap434 @ 2007-04-15T19:10:00

2007-04-15T23:10:47Z

...I need a new hobby.

[Backdated to a few days ago]

2007-04-02T21:02:59Z

Nymphadora Tonks is in St. Mungo's? According to the Prophet, at least. Isn't she that Auror who turned into a toddler for a few weeks at the beginning of this year? I hope she's okay...

Everything seems so strange lately.

padmap434 @ 2007-03-22T19:37:00

2007-03-22T23:37:38Z

I'm eighteen, and I'm old.

padmap434 @ 2007-03-17T22:15:00

2007-03-18T02:16:30Z

[Private]
It's my birthday on the twenty-second. Another one.
I hope Parvati doesn't make a huge scene of it like last year, that was just disgraceful.
[/Private]

I feel old.

padmap434 @ 2007-03-02T20:48:00

2007-03-03T02:01:32Z

I've been neglecting my journal -- I forgot to tell you all how Trinity College of Music went.

Easy. That's all I have to say about the audition.

However, I don't think I like Trinity all that much. I don't know what it was about it, but it didn't have that friendly of an atmosphere. ~~I really want Juilliard.~~ I don't think I really want to go there.

~~I need to go to Juilliard. If I don't get in... I'll cry. I'm going to miss everyone, but I think I need this.~~

Anyways. WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE CLAWS? Terry, Meg. I think we need to get going on that. We need to beat out those Yawns.

Study session this weekend!! Who's going?

Bradley, I bought you new socks, now stop putting Manny in a pillowcase. He doesn't deserve it! Maybe I should start throwing you in a pillowcase and throwing you out the window. Actually, I'd get Ant to do it because I'm not strong enough. But still.

padmap434 @ 2007-02-14T20:07:00

2007-02-15T01:07:41Z

OH. MY. GOD.

OH MY GOD.

OHMYGOD!!!!

padmap434 @ 2007-02-12T17:48:00

2007-02-12T22:57:52Z

So, I was preparing for the Juilliard interview, and I noticed all of the following things.
1. I have NOTHING to wear.
2. I'm nervous.
3. Why would they set the interview on Valentine's Day?
4. I'm really nervous.
5. Are they expecting me to play piano during this interview?
6. I'm SO nervous.
7. How long is this going to take? It's at 10 am, right after breakfast.
8. I am SO BLOODY NERVOUS.
9. What if I don't fit in at Juilliard? I mean, it's a big place. What if I'm the outcast?
10. WHY AM I SO NERVOUS?!
11. I need to finish that Potions essay, but there's definitely too much to do before it's due.
12. I can't stop feeling nervous!
13. I can't remember when the next Prefect Runs are. Ant, when's the next set of rounds?
14. SOMEBODY. Talk me out of doing this! Please, before I die of the nervousness.
15. Maybe piano's not my thing after all. Maybe I should just be a librarian!
16. Anyone know a way to calm nerves?
17. What if I screw it up really badly? I'm always bad at this sort of thing!
18. I AM SO BLOODY NERVOUS.
19. I don't know if I should do this anymore. I can't be away from everyone. All the way in America? It's too far! I can't do it.

padmap434 @ 2007-02-11T07:14:00

2007-02-11T12:33:06Z

Putting puppies in a pillowcase and then threatening to throw him out the window is NOT a good way to get someone to like you. Also, the same goes for puppy kickers! DO NOT touch Manny again or I'll hex you, Bradley.

[Private to Lisa and Mandy]
Guys, how is the planning going for the party? When are we going to do this thing? I'm really excited!
[/Private]

I suppose I have another silly audition coming up pretty soon. This time, I'm going to Trinity College of Music. At least I won't miss any classes -- it's next weekend, and it's still around this area, so I should be back by Sunday night. Wish me luck, everybody!

Also... this coming Wednesday, I have that interview with Juilliard School of Music. They're coming here and interviewing me! From America!! It feels a bit unbelieveable, really. What if I get in? It'd be insane. I'm actually a bit nervous... ~~no, I'm really nervous~~ I mean, what if they don't like me or something? Or maybe I'll blow it big time or something. I'm not very good at this type of thing, interviews and such. I don't know if I'm ready...

padmap434 @ 2007-01-27T19:54:00

2007-01-28T00:56:33Z

[Hexed from Harry and Draco]
...

Was I the only one who just saw Draco Malfoy and Harry Potter going at it in the Great Hall the other day?

padmap434 @ 2007-01-23T15:51:00

2007-01-23T21:15:32Z

And the puppy's name IS...

Drum roll, please...

Sergej Vasil’evič Rachmaninov!

...Manny for short.

And you're welcome for the knitted hat, Anthony. Can I keep Manny?

[Private]
I liked it better when Aldrick and I weren't talking, I think. What's gotten into me lately? I feel a bit lonely, really.
I hate it when we fight.
[/Private]

padmap434 @ 2006-12-31T19:57:00

2007-01-01T00:57:49Z

...

I GOT A PUPPY FOR CHRISTMAS!!!

What should I name it?

padmap434 @ 2006-12-24T15:19:00

2006-12-24T20:19:58Z

So, I opened the LETTER.

And...

Juilliard wants to set up an interview. With me. In January.

...

I don't know if this is good or bad.

padmap434 @ 2006-12-23T08:56:00

2006-12-23T13:59:37Z

...

Oh my God.

Oh my God.

Oh my God.

I got an owl from AMERICA.

...

.....

From Juilliard.

I can't open it. I can't do it. I won't. What if I didn't make it in? That's it, I didn't make it in! My life is over and I didn't make it in! I can't open it, it'll just be an embarassment. What's the point of opening it? I should just give up now! My life is over!

...

Should I open it?

NO I CAN'T.

...

WHAT DO I DO?

padmap434 @ 2006-12-14T17:22:00

2006-12-14T22:25:19Z

The audition went awesomely, but I feel SO stressed lately. I don't even have the motivation to do homework, and I think that's a first. I might complain about it often, but right now, all I want to do is go take a nap.

So, what does everyone want for Christmas?

padmap434 @ 2006-12-09T16:53:00

2006-12-09T21:53:45Z

I have an audition at the Royal Academy of Music... tomorrow.

Wish me luck, everyone...

I also think I might stop home and see Mum and Dad afterwards, I haven't talked to them in FOREVER. ~~I've been avoiding them~~
Parvati, you need anything if I stop home?

padmap434 @ 2006-12-04T17:27:00

2006-12-04T22:27:00Z

...What happened? I just... woke up someplace. Where the hell am I?

Oh, OW! I think my nose is broken! And my one rib is killing me.

I think the last thing I remember is being in the library. How did I wind up here? I think I'm in the dungeons...

Anthony?

padmap434 @ 2006-11-29T14:53:00

2006-11-29T19:53:45Z

GOOD LUCK ON THE MATCH, GUYS! You'll do great.

[Private]
...Who am I supporting, again?
[/Private]

padmap434 @ 2006-11-26T20:20:00

2006-11-27T01:20:40Z

~~Oi, this is going to be aggravating trying to get his attention.~~

Er. Theodore Nott, if you would please, maybe, set a date so that we can work on our project? I'd rather get it done earlier than later, and I'm sure you would too, since I'm assuming you'd like to get the best grade possible. So, yes. Would you prefer the library or someplace else?

padmap434 @ 2006-11-18T08:02:00

2006-11-18T13:02:17Z

~~THIS IS SO UNFAIR.~~

Okay. Theodore Nott and ...vampires. SO. Er. Theodore? Oh, do you like to be called Theodore? Maybe Theo? Or just... Nott? ~~You scare the feck out of me~~ When are you free so that we can work on this... project?

[Hexed from Slytherins and Teachers/Staff]
OH MY GOD THIS KID IS SCARY. SAVE ME.